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Pernah gak lo ngerasa bersalah banget sama temen atau keluarga lo? pernah gak lo ngerasa kalo lo itu semacam disaster buat other people life? pernah gak? PERNAH GAK?

Itu yg sekarang ini lagi gue rasain dan menjadi alasan why do i cry lately? i feel some happiness a while but then beberapa masalah dateng nyamperin gue persis kayak waktu gue kelas 8 SMP dulu. "ngebunuh" anjing gue sendiri, salah paham sama temen, dikecewain keluarga, semuanya lagi gue rasain sekarang ini dan itu SUKSES BIKIN GUE STRES. sukses banget!

I can do nothing but watching films and eating. sometime i ask myself, "kenapa harus gue sih? kenapa harus barengan gini sih? kenapa harus sekarang sih? kenapa mereka gak bisa ngerti kalo gue udah berusaha ngelakuin yg terbaik sih? kenapa mereka gabisa ngeliat usaha gue buat ngebaikin itu semua padahal, i've done it in front of their face, but they didnt wanna see i think"

Honestly, gue paling gabisa dapet masalah yg berhubungan sama temen gue sendiri. gue paling lemah sama itu. dulu sempet dibikin nangis karena dijauhin temen dan sekarang dibikin nangis lagi karena kesalah-pahaman. Dear, you friend. I never have a thought to destroy your ship with him, i event didnt think that we're forming a triple date, because i only thought that we're just friends and we'll never be more than friends. I dont understand why you're so mean to me right now? I've said my sorry and is it less than enough?

Can someone please tell me how to solve this? seriusan deh gue sekarang ini gatau harus apa, gue masih gaenak sama mereka dan temen-temen gue yg lain pun sama sekali gak ada bantuin gue. why me? why should me??

Let me say thank you for the life-lesson. I need my chocolate.